Life Goes On (Huge Entry)My cat died. I was really sad for about two or three days, but I got over her death. My mom let her out at night but forgot to put her back in. The next morning, I found her dead behind the dumpster; I think she was attacked by dogs. I guess I wouldn't have felt so sad if she had died some other way, like a natural death of old age or something. But... Just seeing her mangled up fur and the blood around her was... heartbreaking. I couldn't help but cry (and I never really cry), because I felt so sorry for her. It just wasn't a good feeling. She was such a timid cat; she'd jump at every little noise, and she'd get scared when someone came around the corner without warning. In the past, I once found her frozen with fear while this dog was barking at her outside. I just brought her back in and thought the dogs were harmless. I mean, it was just barking at her; it wasn't doing anything else. I can only imagine how she felt while being mauled to death by stray dogs.
She died some time in the night, so by the time I found her in the morning, she went stiff, and there were red ants crawling in and out of the wounds. I wanted to at least pet her one last time... but couldn't. My mom and I didn't know what to do with the body. We would've buried her, but there's no earth/dirt around our house; it's all concrete. As we were standing outside, our neighbor came out to throw out the trash, and he asked us what was wrong (my mom and I had both cried). We told him the situation, and he offered to get rid of the body for us. I don't know all the details, 'cuz my mom sent me inside, but when I went back in the afternoon, she was gone. I was pretty much a zombie the whole day. I holed myself up in my room playing Dissidia, trying to forget what I saw, and it worked. As soon as I stopped playing, though, the memories would flood back, and it only seemed as if Happy would pop up out of nowhere like she always did after a nap and just be there looking at me, wanting attention, wanting to be pet. Then the tears would come. I didn't want to remember... I just wanted to forget. But as time went on, I realized that I didn't want to forget; I only wanted this pain to go away.
Slowly, we put Happy's belongings away. Her litter box, her food and water bowls (which still had cat food in it)... Heh, we bought some insectiside now that Happy isn't here to <s> play with</s> exterminate the cockroaches anymore. Even though she's dead, she was well loved and taken care of during her short life. And even in her death, she gave us many things. We decided not to get another pet. It just wouldn't be the same. I'm glad we took in Happy, though. She was one of the best pets I've ever had.
RIP Happy kitty
February 2009 - November 2009
11/23/09
Exam Day. Uuuugh, that took up my whole morning. I felt kinda burned out yet refreshed at the same time. I kinda dozed off during the first 15-20 minutes of it, though.
BUT I GOT THROUGH! I GOT THROUGH ALL OF IT! I'M ALIVE!11/24/09
Went to the movies with mi madre. I guess the reason why I like renting the DVD instead of watching the movie in theaters is so that I can save myself some embarrassment when my mom cranks out all these questions. >_< Dad watches the movies just fine. Mom? Well... I guess it's old age or something, meh. But, wait, my dad's older than my mo--
We watched... *drumroll*.. ASTROBOY! lol I haven't watched the actual anime, but I liked the movie. We were a bit late, though, so I didn't catch what happened in the beginning, but I guess Dr. Tenma's son died, so he made a robot that looked exactly like his son and implanted his son's memories in it. And that robot turns out to be Astroboy! I won't post any spoilers, but if you just wanna watch a good family movie, you should watch it.
Also watched New Moon. I wanted to shoot myself afterwards. No. Actually, I wanted to shoot myself in theaters while watching it. The acting was... Well, frankly, it was horrible. It made me wonder why I even read the book. (I actually read it more for the action.. which there isn't much of. :/) Now, I'm not one of those fans who think the movie should be exactly like the book, but I think some parts would have been better if it had been closer to the book. And had better acting. Srsly. I couldn't exactly feel much emotion from the characters. And I had to keep myself from laughing too hard when my mom told me that Edward Cullen looked gay HAHAHAHAHAHAHA. Take THAT, Twilight fangirls! The only parts I liked in the movie were the Jasper scene at the party, the Victoria chase, and the Volturi in Italy. I was NOT expecting to see Dakota Fanning in this movie, though! It was a surprise. I guess I keep thinking of her as a little girl... and forget that little girls eventually grow up, haha. It was kinda like seeing Shia LeBeof in something other than Disney channel shows, but a bit of a different feeling, lawl. (Plus, her makeup made her look kinda different. It took me a bit of time to figure out it was her.) I think I'm gonna go read the book again to get rid of the bad movie aftertaste.
11/26/09
HAPPY THANKSGIVING! Wow, this was the FIRST YEAR EVAR that I had a turkey dinner. We kinda did this potluck thing with some family friends, and we brought the turkey, mashed potatoes, and stuffing. It was the first time my mom and I had ever made these dishes before, so I looked up some recipes on the internet and followed directions. My mom didn't want to use the oven ( [link] ), so we used our rotissarie oven instead. We bought the smallest turkey we could find, yet we had to shove the bird into it, hoping it would shrink a bit as it cooked. That was probably the hardest part in preparing it, lol. @_@ As soon as everything was ready, we headed on over to a friend's house, which was the gathering place, and feasted like never before. I was pretty much bursting at the seams. >_> I never knew there could be so many leftovers, haha. The leftovers were evenly distributed amongst each family...
11/27/09
...and I had some for lunch today, lol.
Oh, yeah, my friend's mom pretty much forgot about the PSP, so she lent me her charger, and I can play Dissidia! :'D Too bad there's no wi-fi function, though. :/
Tired
Sadness
He'll be here sometime in December! >w< ....Gotta clean out my room, now, so he can move back in. D: haha
Love
Relief
Anguish
